so, momo decided to take his first real steps on Friday, October 12th. that was four days ago, and you honestly wouldn't probably even know that it has happened. he's now back to his usual crawling self with the occasional toddle. i was actually expecting that he wouldn't take his first strides until he was on the very cusp of abnormal (like four months from now, so i feel this is actually quite early), just as he took his sweet time with the milestones of rolling over and crawling. three other moms and i were pregnant at approximately the same time and have approximately the same age boys. we keep in touch by email and various methods, and keep up with struggles and triumphs and such things. i believe they've really been a huge part of my growth as a mother and a person over the last year+. anyway, all three other boys have already started walking, and one of them even started at 10 months (i think it was), and so i suppose mo is just determined to bring the average walking age up a few months. just as well. he's a content kid, and i love that he likes to sit around. he sat in one spot outside the other day, playing quietly with a stick (waving it around, dragging it on the concrete and pointing it at things) for about 15 minutes. it really made my heart feel full to watch him.
in other news, i reached job application # 52 last night. i've been applying for a full-time position for about 10 months now, and i have had zero job offers. i'm beginning to get rather discouraged, to be honest with you. i saw an expose a few months ago, and an HR person was revealing her tricks to have female applicants disclose to her whether they were mothers of young kids. and that if they were, she would put them on the bottom of the pile. i suppose it makes sense, you know, mothers of young kids have high demands on their lives outside of work and there is the risk that she may need to take maternity leave in the near future if she's going to have more children. i can definitely see it from a hiring company's perspective. i'm not saying this is definitely why i'm not getting job offers... but i have had some really promising first round interviews and then dead ends. also, i hear that hiring folks can use access to our public facebook pages and blogs and other online sources to help with their decisions, and if that is the case, it is obvious that i have a young child. i have thought about hiding all of my personal online information, but i just keep thinking that my family is a big part of who i am, and that is who i believe should be hired. i do have more demands on my life outside of my [currently non-existent] workplace, but i also believe i have more resources, motivation, and richness to draw from than when i was single. i actually thought about deleting this public blog and making my facebook private, but i just feel... somehow... like it would take away from my integrity or honesty. although... maybe all this speculation is all for nothing, and people actually aren't hiring me because i'm making some colossal mistake in my applications and interviews.
anyway. if you're reading this because you're thinking about hiring me--hi! please, hire me! i'm desperate for work, and i will do a good job!
lovelove,
pho momma
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